This Year the Second

Did you know, this is the first year I made some resolutions, actually kept a blog going for the whole year, learning how to back up things in the process, and therefore have cruel evidence?

Well I do.

So I was checking over last year’s “This year” post, and my gosh how depressing was I? I promise this post will be much happier – which will be helped by the fact that zomg there are ICICLES outside my window! And I’m talking about substantial, 10cm icicles here – and when you think about the fact that I have never seen a real, live icicle in my life, and this will probably be my first white Christmas EVER then you should be able to gather my excitement, despite my age.

Speaking of age, FYI my emo 17-year-old self, being 18 is actually pretty awesome. I CAN DRINK! AND DRIVE! (well, not at the same time, and I can’t actually drive yet… and I could have before… whatever). So I can just drink, which I don’t very often, but it’s just cool to be able to go into a pub and be like “I can drink. Look at me. I’m 18 now. I have my own ID. I’m cool. I can drink legally now. Har har.”

So yeah. One of the other perks of being 18 is that I’m AN PROPER ADULT. And teachers treat me as such, and there are none of those times where I have to go and cry on the shoulder of my favourite teacher because someone else was horrid to me. Oh geez. That’s an embarrassing story for another day.

So what else did I say last year? Crap about milestones? Well yeah, there were milestones this year, like… um… applying to Uni? FYI I HAS OFFERS. Three of ‘em, pretty awesome ones at that… now just for the work and exams, which MY GOODNESS am I freaking out for. But none of that right now, otherwise I’ll get guilty for not revising right now. Which I have been doing, actually, be proud.

Speaking of offers, and Uni and stuff, I suppose that was a milestone, in realising what I actually wanted to do – aka HAVE FUN. Choosing Music as my degree was the most awesome decision I made in my life. *feels proud* Interestingly last year I said I shouldn’t have done all that work – but looking back now I made the right decision about that – it’s just had I known that I’d choose Music then I would have done stuff like English and History rather than Physics and Maths. But then again, choosing Maths was a great choice since I’m loving it. Ho hum.

This summer was… interesting. Not as great as last, but then there wasn’t an epic music tour, and I spent most of the summer working. Still… it helped me get over my fear of phones, and I figured that that kind of job wasn’t for me. Woo.

Oh yeah, school still sucks.

I bit my nails again this year.

I had an embarrassing not-sort-of-maybe-I-don’t-know-what-this-is date. Which, thankfully turned into nothing. Yet. I still haven’t got back to him on the marriage proposal. (So he didn’t ACTUALLY propose, but on my birthday he helpfully reminded me that I could now get married without my parents’ permission CUE AWKWARDNESS)

Speaking of dates, tomorrow will mark two years that I’ve been single OH JOY. Yes, I did dump my very first boyfriend on Christmas Eve, and YES I DUMPED HIM OVER FACEBOOK. Deal with it.

I just checked up on my resolutions for 2008. Well they were just doomed to fail as spectacularly bad as my relationship. I didn’t pass my driving test (didn’t even try, though I have sort of started learning), I didn’t get all As in my exams, I didn’t revise that much and I don’t even know what the email thing was… I did get a student card but rarely used it so I didn’t bother this year.

HOWEVER, this year I will pass my test. I WILL BE ABLE TO DRIVE BEFORE UNI. I PROMISE YOU, WORLD. But this will be another post. Overall, I don’t really care much about my failed resolutions, apart the grades thing – I realise now that I was complacent after my GCSEs, but this year I am totally freaking out about my exams because HELLO University. And I actually love a couple of the ones I have offers from, and really want to go, therefore want to do well which so far looks like I’ll have to get AAB. And right now I’ve got abc in my AS’s GAH. Anyway, I’ll save all that for the new resolutions post.

This year was big in a couple of new ways too. I actually did two singing exams, and am currently awaiting results for the second, the big eight. Along the same vein, I turned into such a performer, having enjoyed myself immensely during my big solo in the concert, and would love to do more crazy showing off stuff like that in the future. I also took part in NaNo, and although that half-failed, leaving the story be for a month has proved to me that I really do still like the plot, and hopefully at some point I’ll write the remaining 25,000+ words. Because, you know, I actually have a couple more ideas I’m really excited about and I’m forgetting them all… ahhh.

Personally… this year has sucked in a couple of places. I’ve grown up, dealt with loss, decided I didn’t care about so many things, argued a lot, got shouted at, cried (in front of teachers… I still can’t let the fact that I did this go *cringe*), got told to change my act by friends, realised I’ve been wrong, fallen in love… yeah. Maybe that’s why I was so ready to be 18. However, it wasn’t all bleak, but I’m sure next year will be better.

Oh, and this year represents the first full “official” decade I’ve lived through. Bye, noughties. You were good to me.

I’ll leave you with a Merlin classic.

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